So, God is really good . Despite everything going on in this world, he is in control, and not just in world events, but in Christian's lives also. What is this post about, anyways? To anyone reading, i'm ok now and I just thought i'd share this mainly as sunday hope story of encouragement.
Recantly, just like 2 fields, college anxiety and the depression part of Manic Depression ( Bipolar Disorder) has been driving me nuts! I have felt hopeless off and on due to looming projects that have left a sense of fear and nervousness and anxiety and depression. I'm way far back in college than I should be, and nervous on 700 different levels. Last night was the second night I felt almost to the point of hurting myself due to it all.
Mentally, I feel often like if I don't pass these classes I'm a failure and worthless. Like I have screwed up in life due to failure to keep things in one piece. It is a HORRIBLE mindset and is kinda toxic.
So, last night off and on I had thoughts of self-harm, which is VERY rare, it was like hitting a brick wall. It is, and the anxiety is not going to go away until I have finished this semester. Getting that upset and depressed is VERY rare. God uses the weirdest things to get people under control when they are upset inside.
Well, my sister at 11ish PM was posting in a group chat I was part of about how she couldn't sleep due to a wasp or Yellowjacket in her room and she has a way of taking a bad situation she is in and turning it into humor due to exaggerations and relating it to random things. Her amusing narrative made my depression go away and be replaced with humor.
Conclusion: God is Good and it is crazy awesome how He can use some of the weirdest ways possible as a means to help Evan cope with depression. For any Christian readers, has there been a time God used some weird experience to cheer you up when depressed? Thoughts?
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