brokenness

Brokenness is filling me,

I wish it could be seen,

I know it is hard to be here,

But. with God I have no fear,

I will stay strong,

I will not fall down,

God, you keep me moving on.

Lord, make me whole.

Lord give me hope,

Even when there seems to be none,

Like a young, dying solider, 

bleeding and torn from war,

There is nothing left of me,

I am shattered inside and dying,

No person can help me truly,

I've hurt so many years,

And struggled in trusting you,

Lord, help me change,

Cause with you, I am not beyond repair,

You love me despite my ungratefulness ,

And all of my despair,

Help me accept that you are there,

And leave me this way for a reason,

I give this war to you Jesus,

And toss it all away,

All of what I have done is rubbish,

Lord, take me as I am, 

And make me whole. 

Alone II

He feels so damn alone,

doesn't understand what is going on,

And sick of his retarded mind,

Somedays it takes all his strength,

Just to keep goin,

and despite what he wants,

He keeps going on,

Alone,

Alone, 

So alone......

Out of the closet, closing the door.

Emotion took over Amy's  sister, Emily's heart,

As she came out of the closet,

in a graveyard for a broken heart,

She walked away from the tombstone,

of many filled years of pain,

And as Emily closes the door,

her blade she had applied many times to her arm,

It fell to the floor,

She would never use it no more.

( the poem is for interpretation on what the final line says. )

A struggling college student

A sick college student,

sits in misery and hopelessness,

feeling like he is nothing but a pain,

The stress is driving him insane,

He yearns to be ok,

but it's not gonna be the case,

Nobody knows how he feels inside,

underneath my ugly ass smile,

that I wish would fade away for good,

and never see the light of day again.