Don't hate me..

Don't hate me,

For what I am,

I never chose to be this way,

So stop the hate,

Don't give me pain.

Don't hurt me,

I know you don't want me,

You use me like a toy,

And seduce me like i'm a fool,

You yell at me so viciously,

And in my mind I scream " Somebody Help Me!"

Don't do this to me,

You don't know my suffering.

-,Evan White

The Slaying of Princess Pain

Thoughts run through my mind,

I feel like I can fly,

The same way pain does ,

When it runs through my veins,

I wake up from this happy dream,

Where I can actually be me,

To find nothing but princess pain,

Who slays boys with self hate,

Tells them they are to be shamed,

I must do what needs be,

Put on my armor and hold my sword,

Go to war with the danged whore who slays,

Princess pain.

Her army of emotions must be destroyed ,

The battle wages on and there she is,

In her blood stained dress,

The sociopathic bitch.

She says to me " give up you worthless dick!" ,

I say back " I'm sick of your bitching and rule in my lfie.",
She offers a knife saying " die.",

I feel her power but do not stir,

Having enough I thrust my sword into her lung.

The deed is done,

The war is won.

Priciness pain is replaced by her sister,

Princes Joy,

Who with God's blessing rules the land with hope,

And peace and love.

listen.....

Everything seemed so normal,

Like every other day,

He went to school and acted like he was ok,

What else  could he say?

So it all was hidden away,

Yet the crazy boy could not escape the pain.

Sticks and stones left cut arms,

And what they did left him enraged,

The wound that was in his heart worsened,

But  nobody knew,

As everything was bad it turned worse,

his best friend was found dead after a drunken wreck.

he stared at her body and felt her pain.

Still nobody knew.

It was too much, so he  looked at the schedule from trains.

11 P.m., he laid on the railroad ties and waited,

11:10 came and so did the train.

The Amtrack ran over him,

And his life was over,

He was happy with Jesus and his girl.

H.U.R.T.

Heartbroken

Unloved

Rejected

Trash.

That accronyn sums up me. I'm heartbroken, feel unloved and rejected and i'm trash. Sorry for the short post. Will try to do better.

late night love song.

I got a feelin thats burniin my mind,

All that's going on is he is riding away,

why not toss up a lil something back in your life,

And not let you leave lonely tonight.

Come on after this football game,

Hop on my bike and lets ride away,

Got out together and get a lil insane.

Visit my place and have a party tonight,

Or just drive all night till the sunlight.

Don't sit in the past girl,

Jump inside this crazy train,

We can go ether way,

Till we kill our pain.

Stop at the train tracks and smile,

I know we are only friends but still,

This is my late night love song.

You are the reason

You are the reason
____________________

You are the reason I'm trying harder,

To be the man I need to be,

You are the reason ,

I'm trying to be more clean,

You are the reason,

I put my head up and keep on,

Even when the going gets hard,

I think of you.

You are the reason ,

I want to control myself.

I got a ways to go,

But with your help I know,

I must keep on going,

Thank you.

ruined souls....

the church bells ring on sunday morning,

everyone is happy so it seems,

The choir sings Holy Holy Holy,

And the minister speaks about how Jesus saves,

Come every other morning, his words will change.

Tuesday night  a woman came in to the church,

She was filled with hurt and pain,

With a desire to repent and become a Christian,

She walked to the pastors office and walked in.

" My name is Cathy, and I am filled with pain,

I have commited many sins,

My home I was raised in was broken,

After years of abuse ,

When I turned 18 I ran from it,

and became a alcoholic,

2 years later I got pregnant from a one night stand,

And killed my child via abortion.

Now all I need is help and a way out,

If God loves everyone,

Will you tell me how he can rescue?"

"You wretched drunken whore! ",

The minister said.

Upset and crying the woman left,

but on the way to her Ford ,

She saw the pastor's daughter in prayer.

" Jesus, forgive that poor woman, let her get to know you."

She heard the girl say.

And then the girl cried " Stop miss!'.

This 15 year old girl led the Woman to Christ,

Cause she could sort of understand what the woman had felt,

Even after her new life,

The woman felt the pain she had left,

And in a depressive state she said " Jesus forgive me!",

and shot a bullet in her head causing instant death.

Two days latter the minister was at his desk,

And had a heart attack that instantly left him dead.

As he looked at God he was scared,

for Jesus said " Depart i never knew you!",

The man thought he had light,

but he had death.

And in heaven the suicidal girl who had repented,

was happy forever.


(This poem is targeted for ridicule against false so called Christians who thought they were saved but never were,)

" Not everyone who saith to me Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; But he that doth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? And in thy name cast out devils? And in thy name done many wonderful works? And then I will profess unto them, I never knew you:  depart from me, ye that work iniquity. " - Mathew 7:21-23 KJV

crime with a babyish punishment

" Where are we going?" Asked Kellie. The Confederate girl then said: " We are going to a long abandoned fort that's takeover by our folk in 1861 started the civil war. It is there you have been assigned to train. Very few people remember it because the history of what was America his nearly been erased. We will be riding by horseback to South Carolina. " This is insane! Why not use a train or something faster? They will kill us before we reach our location!" Kellie responded. The boy sighed and said, " Maybe a train would be a faster way of doing things and less dangerous. If we hid in a box car we would not be noticed. Nobody would know we existed. It will be rough and bumpy but much more concealed and safer than riding. But before we get on, it's best we stop at the nearest store and get something to eat. On the way up I saw a  store that had a giant sign saying Food Lion on it. The store had been abandoned it seems but we might find some supplies. " Said the boy.  They all agreed on the idea on riding a train. " uh, how will we use the bathroom if we are in a boxcar for days on end? It will be rather hard because there is no toilet in a boxcar I am pretty sure." Asked Katie.  Nobody responded, cause that had not been thought of yet. With tired horses, they arrived at the store. The door was unlocked. " We will need just enough food to last us a few days. If we get food that will spoil it will be bad and we will have nothing to eat. We must find things that will not spoil. Like canned goods." The boy said. As they walked through the aisles Kellie noticed a igloo cooler and said. " This cooler will keep food  cold for a day or so. " and she grabbed the cooler and stocked it up with foods that would need a cooler while the Confederate twins got bulk goods. Just before they left to the check out counter, she ran to the aisle that had a sign on top saying " Baby Goods." She ran through that area, and grabbed 2 bags of large girls Goodnites and 2 bags of large girls UnderJams. they all met at the checkout area. When the girl noticed the diapers she asked " What are Those for??" Kellie then explained. " If we go on a boxcar with no bathrooms or a way to get out and use the bathroom, I thought we could use diapers when we have to go to the bathroom. I know it is gross but thee only other option is mess or wet our underwear which will cause a bad smell in we will be caught. With these we will not have to deal with that. If one of us has to use the bathroom, we can use a diaper and another one of us could if need be, change diapers. " The boy responded saying " You are right. By the way Kellie, we found a loaded Smith and Wesson .48 Special with a box of bullets for it . Considering you don't seem to know how to use our 1860s guns and swords, I thought you might like this as a sidearm and as your main weapon you can have this .22 rifle with ammunition we found. If we end up being caught by the so called police that work for gangs our guns will come in good use. " 2 hours latter, right before the train started it's midnight ride, they snuck into a boxcar with their stuff and hid behind some boxes in case someone went in to investagate. Luckily nobody did and as the train left Kellie clung to the boy in his confederate uniform. It was cold and even though the girl had found and baught a blanket to use for sleeping and 2 tiny pillows, it was almost impossible to sleep as the train went on. After they ate some sandwiches and shared a bottle of wine, the boy said " I will have the first shift for lookout. You girls try to go to bed." Then nervously he added in " Kellie, I really like your hair." Kellie was fast asleep though, and could not hear him. The train went into the night....

I wanna be that song by Brett Eldridge ( We all have that person..)

We all have that person we want to be that song for.... He/she can be your best friend, your fellow student, your girlfriend or boyfriend.... 

 

Dedicated to someone I really care about

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                          Answer to question 1. Romans 7;15. I can relate to what that verse so much because of the fact I also do not know why I do what I do

Question 2:The Guns Of The South

Question 3: I want to run better and faster this month

Question 4:I changed the layot of my blog a bit, delete some pages, and edited the about me section.

Question 5: the latest chapter i had posted .

Question 6: " We are here to help you." The girl said

Question 7:David. Because he suffered and had depression issues

Question 8: N/A

Question 9: I have learned certain was to attract more bloggers.

Question 10: Katie, from my own book. I don't know exactly what i'd do.

                                 
     
                                             

If I was dead...

The world would be happier,

If I was dead,

So why am I living instead,

Considering the world ,

Would be happier if i was dead,

Why do I not drive this knife through my chest?

Yet I survive and live on,

Though sometimes I wish I was gone.

why?

Why am I here,

Why am I alive,

Why does nobody hear my silent cries,

As I slowly die,

But nobody knows,

if they did, would they care?

Jesus loves me ,

This I know,

but where did everyone else go?