Why do I want you so much?

I want you so badly girl,

I just miss you so,

Why did you  have to leave me alone?

I want to be with you girl,

We both truly know,

That we are better of together than apart.

Making a difference.

here are the 4 ways we can make a difference.

The first thing that makes a difference is that make a difference people are committed to excellence. They want to excel and pass all expectations. Push things over the limit. The second this is they are committed to service. They bust their backs trying to help others in need. From helping  a old lady carry her groceries across the road to giving your life as a missionary serving God overseas, a make a difference person needs to do service. At the end of the day though, according to Isaiah 64:6 our righteous acts are like filthy rags. You can work your whole life doing service for others but in the long run they will lead you to hell unless you choose to become a Christian and then helping others is something a Christian should do to be like Jesus. Love thy neighbor as thyself is one of the commandments Jesus puts much emphasis on. In ephesians 2:8 it says we are saved by grace you have been saved through faith and it it is not from yourself but a gift from God. Well, now to point number 3. Make a difference people are committed to growth. That is good to do, because it increases your knowledge of the wornd helps character. Finally, point number 4.Make a difference people are committed to giving. Just as in point 2, I ask the question: You can give thousands of dollars but it don’t matter if you do it as a non Christian. In some cases It could be considered selfishness! Sometimes people give just to get praised by man. How is that giving?  Psychologically you can give because you think it is the right thing to do. How do you know what is the right thing to do if your morals have no basis and are relativistic?  In the long run, how can we make a positive difference if we reject God. The people may be in better condititions in life but without Jesus and them learning the gospel of Christ, if they ain’t Christians, they may well end up in hell and in the long run how is that good?   

I am most committed to Growth, Excellence, and Service. Giving is a form of service to start with. I try to do my best with both. Excellence is important me so I can with God’s help overcome my problems. Growth also is important. I like to grow in character.

I would like to become more committed to letting God use my disability for His glory. It will have good results if I do.And to go and develop it requires more self control, help from God, and letting him help me along this road called life. 







( This is the second out of multiple essays and response questions I wrote for a online class i'm doing that uses athiest writen material. Let me know if it is any good and if i should release more .) 

Cvil Rights in a Biblical perspective

With all that America has dealt with in these past two years I think it is about time a teenager speaks out for social justice and the root of it all. I will start by saying since the fall of man after Adam sinned that was when social injustice started. It exists and throughout history shows itself. People were enslaved. In the Roman Empire those who were POWs became slaves along with debtors, criminals, and such. Going on.. Even before the European settlers came here, North America had slaves.. Groups like the Aztec empire enslaved people to work for them. Going into colonial times till 1860s, America had slavery as part of their life. After the Civil War it finally fell but discrimination existed well into the 1970s. Women had little rights also but over time, especially after the Women’s rights movement, women had the same rights and were able to do almost everything a man can do. However, slowly evil begain to creep into movements like the Women’s Rights movement. Specifically when the Roe. V. Wade case was decided.

Did Jesus care for all humanity and treat women the same as men? I would say yes.  He cared about both men and women and children and everyone? According to Matthew 8 that seems to be the case, and that is just one example. However, Jesus cared about children too: Luke 18:17,Matthew 19:14. Considering this and along with the fact a fetus is a child that is a issue for certain aspects of women’s rights today. Cause women who do abortions kill their children and are no better than a person who stabs their newborn child. Also, women’s rights has gotten to the point that it really has become a fight for power on who is the head of the house or church sometimes. First Timothy 2:11-12 “ A woman should learn in quietness and full submission I do not permit a woman to teach or assume authority over a man. She must be quiet.” considering this, it is not ok for a woman to cross the line and take over household and church! Now I will quickly sum up all these new ideas about rights such as LGBTQ rights. They are unbiblical and you can’t be born gay I am running out of space so I will save that for another time. For now I will quote what the Bible says: Leviticus 18:22 “ Do not practice homosexuality, having  sex with another man as with another woman. It is a detestable sin.” So to sum things up: True social justice will never come till Jesus comes back and everything is made pure, and some forms of social justice are not social justice at all!.  

Story behind my invisable scars line I base my poetry off of...

It was a line created by me that I have based many of my poems on. The invisible scars and unseen bleeding is essentially me expressing pain. I created the idea of invisible scars I think at a time when I was at my lowest. I am openly bipolar and self violent some times. I use the imaginary scars as a way to express the pain I have when depressed. That's it.

The invisible scars you do not see,

They are all too real,

I hide so much pain under this smile,

So you don't have to feel what I feel.

When Satan assaults you emotionally...

It has been happening to me recently. Satan has been trying to tell me i'm not enough. It is driving me crazy but I know God is in control and he will guide me and help me end these emotions. I think most Christians experience it at times. Satan preys on our weaknesses and emotions and tries to mentally take control of you via mental tactics he uses like doubt and fear. Even Jesus, he had to deal with these emotions while in the wilderness. but as Christians, we can overcome these emotions. As Paul writes to the Christians in Philippi , " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13. That includes fighting the evils Satan can throw at us. don't be a victim . With god's help , overcome!

When you hit rock bottom..

When you hit rock bottom,

And have nowhere to go,

When your life is hanging,

On a rope,

Turn to Jesus  the one who saves,

And let him show you the way.


- poetry.

*I don't know about y'all but sometimes I can get sick of myself. I wish I turned to Jesus first more often. Us Christians should try better to turn to our master instead of using him as a last resort. He's prevented me from killing myself before and given me strength to carry on.

Of God and Government

So.. As nobody expected, Trump won the election and is to be our president starting January.
Some people are very mad about this but I want to share my opinions. Well, I was a Trump supporter and when Trump won I got backlash and nobody liked me cause I voted Trump. As a American and a Christian how are we to react? Firstly, God is the dude who is the final word and is the one who ultimately decides who gets the most votes and which canidates win the most states and/or get the most electorials. Thus said, as Christians, we must understand God created us all and he created Americans and he was the one who allowed one of our parties to win the presidency. He made people with free will and the ability to make their own decisons. So the political choices people made were ones God predestined  for them to vote. He knew that Trump would win. He knew who every election would end and who would lead America and knows which ones will happen in the future and who will win. God used our votes to have a leader set up for 4 years min. So we can be mad all we want but God wanted Trump in power and he used us Americans to set up those he destined to lead America. Romans 13.












* I felt inclined to write this. I rarely do political posts but this is a exception because I thought someone needed to speak out.

My blog spontaneously Changed background

I don't know what happened. I did not add those book wallpaper . It needed a update anyways. Don't worry ! I will renovate blog once school gets done today . And make everything look nice . And I really hope the blog don't go haywire again!

Burning bridges

I'm burning a bridge,

We built together,

Out of love and caring,

Twine by emotional bonds,

Close smiles  and looking in each other's eyes,

And  a passion to make things happen,

I thought this bridge would never destruct,

That It was built well,

But the truth I see now,

It must go down in flames,

The foundation was badly made,

And it must be unmade.

The destruction must go well,

not one brick left unturned,

not one board or plank not burnt.

It all must go,

It must burn away,

none of it will decay,

It will just burn away.


                                 

             ( Dedicated to someone who i thought was a blessing but turned out to be just another pain. I wish I had never cared about her.)