Monday, June 11, 2018

Alone II

He feels so damn alone,

doesn't understand what is going on,

And sick of his retarded mind,

Somedays it takes all his strength,

Just to keep goin,

and despite what he wants,

He keeps going on,



So alone......

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

Out of the closet, closing the door.

Emotion took over Amy's  sister, Emily's heart,

As she came out of the closet,

in a graveyard for a broken heart,

She walked away from the tombstone,

of many filled years of pain,

And as Emily closes the door,

her blade she had applied many times to her arm,

It fell to the floor,

She would never use it no more.

( the poem is for interpretation on what the final line says. )

Friday, June 1, 2018

A struggling college student

A sick college student,

sits in misery and hopelessness,

feeling like he is nothing but a pain,

The stress is driving him insane,

He yearns to be ok,

but it's not gonna be the case,

Nobody knows how he feels inside,

underneath my ugly ass smile,

that I wish would fade away for good,

and never see the light of day again.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

crying in the pain.

She was crying in the pain,

That was overall her life,

and honestly just wanted to go,

Worn inside and had enough,

I heard her say "I've had enough.",

As she talked,

the train was on its way.

she tarted to run ,

run in front of the train,

and I took off after her,

right when she was meters ,

just meters for making it to the tracks,

Where she was indeed trying to die,

I broke out speeding and caught her just in time.

She protested, cried, and said she wanted to die,

impaired by alcohol and drugs she did not know,

What was even going on.

I took her carried her away so she could calm down and sober up,

and wished God would change her heart. I loved her so.

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

It's been a long road

It''s been a long road here,

To where I am now,

Verses were I was years ago,

I'm still Bipolar and that will never change,

But God used life to help me,

and to hurt me,

For his Glory,

It's been a long road,

But here I am now,

Troubled still,

But a bit better.

Sunday, April 22, 2018

Loneliness II


why do you torture me,

and make me feel so sad?


Why do I do what I do,

To deal with you? 

Why do I listen to you,

instead of the Lord? 

Saturday, April 7, 2018

Your choice. ( Poetry.)

It is our choice,

Every day,

To do what is right,

Or to go astray,

Will you follow the hard path,

Or decide to go rouge,

Will you live the way,

Jesus wants us to,

Or will you just focus on you?

It's your choice,

Every day,

We have free will,

and what you chose,

It will ether glorify,

Or let our flesh go wild,

Will you follow our passions and fantasies,

Or will you do what is right and Godly.

It is your choice,

to make each day,

will you take the hard road,

or go astray?

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Run with me! (poem.)

Take my hand,

Run away with me,

Leave this town,

Your family,

and your ex,

And let's go to where things are best,

Will you come with me?

Up north to Wyoming,

Or down to Texas?

Whatever happens,

Will you go with me?

To the ends of the seas?

Monday, March 19, 2018

How I love you Lord ( poem.)

Lord how I love you! ,

It is kinda crazy 

that you would come down,

to save sinners like me,

hell-bent and broken,

till you came into my life,

and everything changed,

As my life goes on,

You are the one who created me,

So why am I so selfishly at times,

just ungrateful for the life you gave me? 

I guess it is my human nature,

that tells me I'm too far gone,

and that there's no way out.

Lord, you have helped me many times,

So please help me overcome,

Before I fall apart. 

Lord, How I love you!

Monday, March 5, 2018

All these people! ( poetry.)

All these people,

We all see,

When we look around,

All those souls,

lost and need to be found,

And what are we doing?

We are just sitting in our homes,

Where we feel a false sense

of out of home satisfaction,

While the unsaved druggie ,

Hopeless and alone,

Is on the street snorting crack,

The disabled vet,

He is living a living hell,

with having PTSD.

And what do we do?

The lesbian who don't,

what is true love,

and is told she can't change,

Will we kick her out of church,

And tell her she can never be forgiven?

What do we do?

How will we deal with

Those who are disturbed and unsaved?

Do we let them rot in hell?

Or will we share the Gospel,

and pray God uses us ,

to save them from eternal condemnation.


* I wrote this to wake up fellow Christians from
bad and close to sinful ways to reach unsaved.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

When you feel like you are too far gone.. Grace....

 Ok. I normally do poetry but I decided I wanted to post this instead for personal reasons. 

Even As Christians, it is sometimes very hard. There are indeed days where we can feel

like we have done things that are never pardonable because of how wrong they may be.

But did Jesus come to atone just the "little things." or "white lies."? Heck no! 

God doesn't choose what he will forgive his people for and what he won't . 

Even when it feels like you are just too far gone, you ain't.

God doesn't dump you. Ask him for forgiveness for what you done and he will forgive.

With his help, Jesus will help you fight no matter how hard things may be. 

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

when your burdens seem to hard to bear ( poetry.)

When your burdens seem to hard to bear,

Cast them down to our savior,

Who will help you get through,

If your trials seem to hard to stand,

Cast them to our Savior,

Who will help up stand,

When your heart feels like it is gonna burst,

Share your problems with The Lord.