dying star

Tonight a star is dying,

It is way before his time,

Everybody is left blind,

Cause his happy smile,

His red hair,

His bright eyes,

They make him look so alive,

But nobody can see,

Behind the sky,

This star is about to fall,

It’s final sparkle has burnt off,

and it is gone

Smiling.....

it's progress and regress but it is calming down ,

I and slowly stopping thinking with a frown,

I believe myself that I am falling down,

Yet my heart knows I can stay afloat,

I can keep sailing my boat,

And will cross this sea of life.

Coming Down - Five Finger Death Punch. and life updates.

Just a quick post this morning for y'all. Recently i've been suicidal. Yes, again. Graduation day is coming and I will be loosing people I got close to. So i've  been sad. The sun is finally coming up and no more cold. Even over all this mess I am changing my life and trying to kick a addiction of some sort. I am glad for all of my readers, even if I don't know who you are.

I'm falling to the ground, as my life dashes from me, I think of everything I am, and what I could be...... I feel my own blood, antiher not seen, flow out of me, I once was lost and now I'm found , was blind but now i see, yet is this my God given Destiny?  No! This horror must stop, I must get up, but am I storing enough? I always though I was emotionally rough, but now I feel the effects of pain , dealing with them is tough. I cry " Heaven Save Me!" And then I decease. - Poem inspired by a girl who collapsed dead on one of the Guiflord County School's tracks.