Thursday, December 29, 2016

feel it...

Feel it,

girl you caused the pain,

look at the mistake you made,

i hope you are happy ,

now that you are gulity of my suicide,

along with years of lack of being wanted,

i'm about to loose it.

i have a knife by my side to slash my wrists,

I know it will give you jooy if i'm gone,

so now enjoy what is left of me.

( I ain't gonna hurt myself in reality. I just am expressing my frustration in a poem. she turned out to put me through hell and I miss her badly.)

Sunday, December 18, 2016

My Darkest Hour..

My Darkest Hour.    

In my darkest  hour,

You stand by me,

Even when it all is falling,

You stop  the bleeding,

when I feel dead as night,

You come in and save me,

You truly are the Light ,

Thank You Jesus for rescuing me,

From turning to Mandy and Molly, 

Help me stay on the right path,

Even when I feel like i'm dying,

Thank you for saving me,

You are here for me Lord,

Even in my darkest hours.

What is happening to me???

My moods are getting worse and worse. I feel like drowning myself. I'm already drowning in tears that feel like blood even though they are only tears. Years of life have been tearing me apart. It has come almost to the point I can barely stand my own body. My mind is always messed up and I can't tell or trust anyone. It is hard to deal with myself these days cause I know I will wake up to the same person every day, myself. I don't know what else to say. Jesus Help Me!


Just you and me...

Just you and me baby,

Together on the dance floor,

Lost in your eyes and your smile,

I forget we are not alone,

Makes me think of our first good time,

At that concert in Greensboro,

You were screaming and singing to a band I didn't even like,

But I didn't care cause you were there ,

Months went by and you could be found there,

cheering me on at every cross country race,

Then coming to my track meet in the freezing cold,

Just to see me get last place running the mile yet break my P.R.,

Remember the night we went to prom?

You looked so dang good in that orange fancy dress,

And how I made 5 requests for that one song to turn you on,

Comes winter and change,

When we get washed up by November Rain,

College is calling my name but tonight babe,

We will do one last time around the floor,

Before it is time to say goodbye,

So don't think about tomorrow,

Just think about tonight ,

Cause this is our final night,

Before our southern story ends.

Saturday, December 17, 2016

why does nobody really care?

Why? It makes no sense. Why just abandon me ?
I never did anything bad to her.
Why do people not care about me?
Why am I not loved?
Why am I alive?
why why why!?

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

The end is near..

Wow! Things have gone by so fast! It does not seem too long ago when I first started cross country and now I'm finishing up my final season of Winter Track and my final classes??!!?? It's crazy.  In the meantime I've still been looking for work, back to playing my favorite game on my phone, rockin out to music, drinking lots of Dr. Pepper and Cheerwine, and sleeping or riding when i'm not practicing for track/running or doing school. I've also been going to basketball games at my school. Anyways, high school is ending and a new chapter of my life will start, or as I call it , " The final finish line is so close." I'm struggling in many areas of my life but advancing in others. I have also learned a bit about the free market and how businesses work. My online eBay store is under liquidation because it was a flop of a business . I chose the wrong product to sell. My race at Wrightsville beach is getting closer and closer.

There is hope at the end of this tunnel,

So don't give up,

God loves you so  for His sake keep on,

Life is though and rough,

But in the end it's all part of God's plan.

Monday, December 12, 2016

dying out,but will survive

Jesus i am dying out,

Like a extinct species,

I can't take this messs,

At all anymore.

I'm sick of myself,

Sick of my home,

Sick of my folks,

And sick of my mind.

Jesus take me home,

I just don't know,

If I can deal with this much longer!

But I know I must live,

though often I don't want to.

Lord you put me here for a reason,

Let your will be done in me ,

Don't let me fall apart.

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

A dying princess

A  princess died tonight,

Not one of rich and power and might,

but one who was poor and torn,

She was beautiful despite the scars she wore,

The whole world seemed to hate her.

With every hit her mom gave,

And every blow from her dad,

This princess, my princess,

decided to be dead.

So in her father's study,

she got out a .45 pistol,

she pointed it at her head,

the bullet went in,

and she was dead.

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Why am I alive? Why do I have to be alive?

Well, recently my life has been a wreck and i've had my emotions go haywire. Just now some negative thoughts bout my stupid self are running through my head..... It is insane. Jesus help me! I'm dying inside. Why did you make me? Why am I alive? Jesus, whatever the reason is help me from hurting myself please! I don't want to hurt myself. Do I ? What is wrong with me? I don't understand myself. All I know is the invisable blood is flowing like a river i'm drowning in. Every hidden tear is one scar nobody will see. I don't know myself anymore...

The invisable scars,

the ones nobody sees,

the unheard screams,

the ones nobody hears,

it all seems so fine,

but undernieth his smike,

he is dying inside,

nobody hears his cries,

and slowly, slowly,

he slowly fades away.

Update: I have cycles of mania and depression and i'm expressing depression i'm dealing with now.

Sunday, November 27, 2016

Why do I want you so much?

I want you so badly girl,

I just miss you so,

Why did you  have to leave me alone?

I want to be with you girl,

We both truly know,

That we are better of together than apart.

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Making a difference.

here are the 4 ways we can make a difference.

The first thing that makes a difference is that make a difference people are committed to excellence. They want to excel and pass all expectations. Push things over the limit. The second this is they are committed to service. They bust their backs trying to help others in need. From helping  a old lady carry her groceries across the road to giving your life as a missionary serving God overseas, a make a difference person needs to do service. At the end of the day though, according to Isaiah 64:6 our righteous acts are like filthy rags. You can work your whole life doing service for others but in the long run they will lead you to hell unless you choose to become a Christian and then helping others is something a Christian should do to be like Jesus. Love thy neighbor as thyself is one of the commandments Jesus puts much emphasis on. In ephesians 2:8 it says we are saved by grace you have been saved through faith and it it is not from yourself but a gift from God. Well, now to point number 3. Make a difference people are committed to growth. That is good to do, because it increases your knowledge of the wornd helps character. Finally, point number 4.Make a difference people are committed to giving. Just as in point 2, I ask the question: You can give thousands of dollars but it don’t matter if you do it as a non Christian. In some cases It could be considered selfishness! Sometimes people give just to get praised by man. How is that giving?  Psychologically you can give because you think it is the right thing to do. How do you know what is the right thing to do if your morals have no basis and are relativistic?  In the long run, how can we make a positive difference if we reject God. The people may be in better condititions in life but without Jesus and them learning the gospel of Christ, if they ain’t Christians, they may well end up in hell and in the long run how is that good?   

I am most committed to Growth, Excellence, and Service. Giving is a form of service to start with. I try to do my best with both. Excellence is important me so I can with God’s help overcome my problems. Growth also is important. I like to grow in character.

I would like to become more committed to letting God use my disability for His glory. It will have good results if I do.And to go and develop it requires more self control, help from God, and letting him help me along this road called life. 

( This is the second out of multiple essays and response questions I wrote for a online class i'm doing that uses athiest writen material. Let me know if it is any good and if i should release more .) 

Friday, November 18, 2016

Cvil Rights in a Biblical perspective

With all that America has dealt with in these past two years I think it is about time a teenager speaks out for social justice and the root of it all. I will start by saying since the fall of man after Adam sinned that was when social injustice started. It exists and throughout history shows itself. People were enslaved. In the Roman Empire those who were POWs became slaves along with debtors, criminals, and such. Going on.. Even before the European settlers came here, North America had slaves.. Groups like the Aztec empire enslaved people to work for them. Going into colonial times till 1860s, America had slavery as part of their life. After the Civil War it finally fell but discrimination existed well into the 1970s. Women had little rights also but over time, especially after the Women’s rights movement, women had the same rights and were able to do almost everything a man can do. However, slowly evil begain to creep into movements like the Women’s Rights movement. Specifically when the Roe. V. Wade case was decided.
Did Jesus care for all humanity and treat women the same as men? I would say yes.  He cared about both men and women and children and everyone? According to Matthew 8 that seems to be the case, and that is just one example. However, Jesus cared about children too: Luke 18:17,Matthew 19:14. Considering this and along with the fact a fetus is a child that is a issue for certain aspects of women’s rights today. Cause women who do abortions kill their children and are no better than a person who stabs their newborn child. Also, women’s rights has gotten to the point that it really has become a fight for power on who is the head of the house or church sometimes. First Timothy 2:11-12 “ A woman should learn in quietness and full submission I do not permit a woman to teach or assume authority over a man. She must be quiet.” considering this, it is not ok for a woman to cross the line and take over household and church! Now I will quickly sum up all these new ideas about rights such as LGBTQ rights. They are unbiblical and you can’t be born gay I am running out of space so I will save that for another time. For now I will quote what the Bible says: Leviticus 18:22 “ Do not practice homosexuality, having  sex with another man as with another woman. It is a detestable sin.” So to sum things up: True social justice will never come till Jesus comes back and everything is made pure, and some forms of social justice are not social justice at all!.  

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Story behind my invisable scars line I base my poetry off of...

It was a line created by me that I have based many of my poems on. The invisible scars and unseen bleeding is essentially me expressing pain. I created the idea of invisible scars I think at a time when I was at my lowest. I am openly bipolar and self violent some times. I use the imaginary scars as a way to express the pain I have when depressed. That's it.

The invisible scars you do not see,

They are all too real,

I hide so much pain under this smile,

So you don't have to feel what I feel.

Monday, November 14, 2016

When Satan assaults you emotionally...

It has been happening to me recently. Satan has been trying to tell me i'm not enough. It is driving me crazy but I know God is in control and he will guide me and help me end these emotions. I think most Christians experience it at times. Satan preys on our weaknesses and emotions and tries to mentally take control of you via mental tactics he uses like doubt and fear. Even Jesus, he had to deal with these emotions while in the wilderness. but as Christians, we can overcome these emotions. As Paul writes to the Christians in Philippi , " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13. That includes fighting the evils Satan can throw at us. don't be a victim . With god's help , overcome!

Sunday, November 13, 2016

When you hit rock bottom..

When you hit rock bottom,

And have nowhere to go,

When your life is hanging,

On a rope,

Turn to Jesus  the one who saves,

And let him show you the way.

- poetry.

*I don't know about y'all but sometimes I can get sick of myself. I wish I turned to Jesus first more often. Us Christians should try better to turn to our master instead of using him as a last resort. He's prevented me from killing myself before and given me strength to carry on.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Of God and Government

So.. As nobody expected, Trump won the election and is to be our president starting January.
Some people are very mad about this but I want to share my opinions. Well, I was a Trump supporter and when Trump won I got backlash and nobody liked me cause I voted Trump. As a American and a Christian how are we to react? Firstly, God is the dude who is the final word and is the one who ultimately decides who gets the most votes and which canidates win the most states and/or get the most electorials. Thus said, as Christians, we must understand God created us all and he created Americans and he was the one who allowed one of our parties to win the presidency. He made people with free will and the ability to make their own decisons. So the political choices people made were ones God predestined  for them to vote. He knew that Trump would win. He knew who every election would end and who would lead America and knows which ones will happen in the future and who will win. God used our votes to have a leader set up for 4 years min. So we can be mad all we want but God wanted Trump in power and he used us Americans to set up those he destined to lead America. Romans 13.

* I felt inclined to write this. I rarely do political posts but this is a exception because I thought someone needed to speak out.

Monday, November 7, 2016

My blog spontaneously Changed background

I don't know what happened. I did not add those book wallpaper . It needed a update anyways. Don't worry ! I will renovate blog once school gets done today . And make everything look nice . And I really hope the blog don't go haywire again!

Saturday, November 5, 2016

Burning bridges

I'm burning a bridge,

We built together,

Out of love and caring,

Twine by emotional bonds,

Close smiles  and looking in each other's eyes,

And  a passion to make things happen,

I thought this bridge would never destruct,

That It was built well,

But the truth I see now,

It must go down in flames,

The foundation was badly made,

And it must be unmade.

The destruction must go well,

not one brick left unturned,

not one board or plank not burnt.

It all must go,

It must burn away,

none of it will decay,

It will just burn away.


             ( Dedicated to someone who i thought was a blessing but turned out to be just another pain. I wish I had never cared about her.)

Monday, October 31, 2016

An angel dies

The death of an angel,

Her body of the floor,

After years of being ,

Broken and torn,

Nobody cares that she's gone.

The pain outweighed the good,

And she said " God, I've had enough! "

"Take me home!" ,

She stuck the knife through her neck,

 Just like that, she was gone

i'm restless

I am so restless,

I spend many nights without sleep,

My emotions make me go a little crazy,

I love the night,

It loves me,

Even though I  feel so lonely,

It may kill me one day,

But Hey!

I still stay awake at day!

Saturday, October 29, 2016

Room Renovations Part 2

So here's the new version of my room:

I have this giant new bed to replace my old one.

                                               I loved the mini bar to were the doll stuff was

Where the mini bar was , I moved all my doll stuff and it really is much cleaner looking. I made some adjustments. I turned my old end table I no longer use into a trundle bed by turning the enndtable's shelf into a doll bed and I put my old pillow as a trundle under the bed in a way it could be pulled out for when needed

Room Renovations! : ) (finally!)

Well, for a while my room has needed some changes. So That has been what happened and to be honest, I think it looks less of a mess.

                    Here's my old room :

This is my old room set up section one. It is the part that is yet to have changed but desk replacements are under way

This is my old bed. It's a twin and rather small

This area was a mini bar of some sort. Thus those glasses and bottles

That's the old American Girl doll home. It spread across the wall.

Now for The new

Friday, October 28, 2016

Crime With A Babyish punishment

 Meanwhile in the other side of the country, right on the Nevada – South Dakota border, Mary Annie, Jason, Lydia, Tanya, and the rest of their company were in a stolen Jeep on the way to Rapid City, South Dakota. “ So, we are looking in rapid City for the enemy . There is supposedly somebody with information there about Emily and we as a group have been assigned to fight for control of the plains. So are you ready? Jason loaded his shotgun and said “ Ready for anything. Let’s now head for that hotel where the headquarters for our side’s army is located. “ Into the town they rode and the sight they saw was devastating. Bodies were everywhere, and everything was burnt. “Oh my gosh! What the heck is happening? It looks like a bonfire!” A girl came out of a little house and from the rubble, she smiled. “ Emily!!” Jason cried! “ I see you all have not forgotten me, and the abductees forgot about me. Everyone else is dead. There is nothing left here. We can search for any remaining supplies and for any clues on where the heck Kelsey and all the other loons who ran this town to the ground are. The whole state is in ruins and the governor has been assassinated for resisting according to the empire run CVS news. It is pretty much run by nobody at this point. There’s no government and The Dark side saw the whole state as wasteland that they left to rot. Thus, the whole state has become a stronghold. There is some of the enemy in the state though. It was said that a train line run by the Dark Side. There are multiple mini cities the enemy has created though, in the middle of nowhere but still they have built small cities. We should go help fight the enemy a drive them out of South Dakota. “ A day latter they were on the way to the closest stronghold.

crime with a babyish punishment

. “ Kellie went back to the farmer and said  “ We can and will take your offer. How many people  are still here? “500 good folks have stayed to keep their home alive. I know we need to make plans, but firstly, you girls  need food, weapons,  and clothes.  I don’t know how one of you ended up in such horrid clothing conditions but you will need new clothing. Unfortunatlly, we have no military clothing so you will have to wear my wife’s dresses. I will work on getting the old truck fixed for y’all to use safely. We have a cellar you can live in as your own home. It is safest for you to live underground. I promise that once they know heroes are here ,  our neighbors will donate furniture and equipment to your new home. “  Thank you sir! You are so kind for letting us live here for awhile till you can leave and our town is safe. The train you blew up is the only train on this route and that said, nobody will know about it for awhile if we destroy everything they have, but watch out. The danger is up north 40 miles away, a town that is much larger and is 100% controlled by the enemy. They even have a small fort run by the dark side. The reason they gave up and surrendered to evil because they were weak at heart. We never gave up, they just took over and left us pretty much when we did not produce enough for them. That’s where you girls come it. Help us defeat the thugs up north who supsoedly have been making plans to destroy within 6 months. Train us how to properly use weapons and if you can, help us make new weapons. A old gun manufacturing plant is right outside of town. If 50 people are willing to be employed there and you can show them what to do, our weapons will be more powerful and more effective for fighting. Tomorrow our friends will help you, but first tonight, we will kill the three men taking guard at the outpost. Once they are gone the town is safe for awhile.  The farmer said. The girls had a fresh dinner of eggs and cornbread. “ Yum!” Exclaimed the very hungry Kellie. “ So when will we take them by surprise?” asked Katlyn, now in  a white sundress, completely opposite to her normal army clothing. She and Kellie had been given shotguns to replace what they had been using that was no longer effective due to lack of ammunition. “ In 30 minutes be ready to kill. My wife, Penny, will be joining us along with my son, Jordan. Together they will die. My Remington 870 has never failed me and will not tonight. Out came his wife, who said nothing but had a smile of hope. Jordan was strong and smart enough to have trained himself on how to use a AK-47. As they left the house to confront the wicked he said to  Katlyn, “ You are pretty dad gum strong. I knew  your brother. He was a good guy.  I heard you were just as good a shot as him and tonight I hope that will prove to be true. “ With a shy smile kaatlyn said “ Thanks, Jordan.” They arrived at the out post, where the three men were surprised. Guns pointed they started firing. But the girls and their new friends were smart. They dodged the bullets. It was fairly easy to kill all three, Going home they locked the door, and just like everyone else in town, went to bed. After they got home all went to bed, except Katlyn and Jordan, who sat in the kitchen. By nature, Jordan was a good cook and since both him and Katlyn were not tired, he made some pancakes. After they were done Jordan made a smiley face with syrup he put on Katlyn’s pancakes. “ What do you think of my cooking on a scale of one to ten? Good, or bad?” asked Jordan. “ These are the best pancakes I’ve ever tasted Jordan! And I love the smiley face. Also thanks for the coffee.” Katlyn explained. “ There’s something I need to tell you that nobody else knows. I have suspected within our town we have a spy. I have told my dad also. He will probably tell you more about the spy and what we know tomorrow. I just wanted you to be careful. What I am asking you is this, will you be a spy? Nobody needs to know  this offer, not even my father who I truly respect, but I don’t think  he would consider  this a priority. I will track down the spy if you help the town by being a spy. Your missions will be late night. We can talk more about it tomorrow, just don’t tell a soul so the idea does not get out to anyone. I am the most technology advanced person in this town and am a computer genious. Will you help  the town? “ Yes.” Katlyn replied. “ Well for tonight we best retire. I will lead you to your living space and if you would like I will stay with you. Would You Be Ok with that, Katlyn? “ Yes” she replied. Tired and exhausted, they completely fell asleep. Hey Kellie and Katlyn and… Jordan? Wake up. A new day is here and cinnamon rolls are coming out of the oven. Today is moving day, and your new living space will be set up. While we get it ready, Jordan, will you take Kellie and Katlyn down town to meet the townsfolk?

crime with a babyish punishment

. Upset at everything, Kellie watched the thug’s crimes. Katlyn had been dragged to the back car. Essentally they were prisioners on a train, but the thug was stupid and tied the ropes very badly. With much effort, Kellie untied the ropes around her wrists. Next thing she needed to do is save Katlyn before it was too late. With nothing but the thug’s pistol he left behind, she started looking through the cars. “ Where is Katlyn?” she asked herself.. Looked through all the cars,  she knew the one place Katlyn must be. She walked torwards the caboose. The door was locked and the freak was busy getting out waht looked like gasoline. Thoughtlessly She shot the door open and ran in. The thug said : “ Look what we have here. Another rpincess to slay.” Before he could say anything a bullet went straight through his skull. Unofrturnatly, the bomb he had set off had 30 seconds left before the whole train exploded. With Hury and great speed Kellie took Katlyn by the hand and said “ Jump! “ Katlyn said “ Let me get the gun right beside me.” Five  seconds left. With gun in hand and a coat Katlyn grabbed so she would not be naked, the 2 girls jumped. They landed and to the ground and ran to a distance just in time. The train blew up in flames! “ What next Kellie? All we have left is 2 guns low on ammunition and I am only wearing a very uncomfortable and unsafe coat. We are off track, and have no direction. “ Don’t worry Katlyn. I have a bit of food in my coat and there’s a old Ford F-150 over there. Let’s see if it will operate. If it does it is better than nothing. And good job grabbing something to wear, clothes are important. The keys had been left in the car and as they looked inside the truck for the keys, a old farmer said: “ Hey! Get out of my truck you theifs! I am tired of people from the dark side invading this town. So surrender or I will shoot! Strangly though, you don’t look like the enemy..” We aren’t sir. A train going this way we had been hiding in it . We are from the good side, and the dark side found us as stowaways and tried to kill us. My brother died but we managed to kill all five of them. Before my broth died he killed 4 of them and we delt with the fifth. Now we are looking for help, and thought this truck was abandoned just like everything else in this town looks like. “ Katlyn responded. Then the farmer replyed saying “ The enemy has invaded our small town and taken control as a outpost for reasources. Due to new lands, they  barely stop by anymore but we are forced to lodge them or get killed. Our crops are poor and we are pretty much burnt to the ground. They rarely stop here. If you could save our town from destruction we will gladly help you get on your feet, starting with giving you my truck. So are you in for it? You need reasources and clothes. We can help you. Just protect us by raising a decant and well armed army to protect ourselves then defeat the guarded outpost. “ With a bit of tought Kellie said: “ We will have to alert Katie about our situation and ask her. It will take a few minutes to send her a message only she would understand. “ Ok!” The farmer said. A few minutes latter Katie replied saying “ For pete’s sake! If you are stranded and in a position to help these poor people defeat the enemy help them. Save the folks and kill the enemy. And I’m really upset with the news those thugs shot aand kill Katlyn’s older brother. How dare they! Well, help these people they need it badly

Crime With a Babyish Punishment

. “  Back on the train,, Kellie was no longer worried much and laid back, yet quiet. Somehow, nobody had detected their existence. “ nobody thinks about anyone riding in train cars any more these days, so we should be safe.” The confederate girl said, as her twin brother rubbed against Kellie’s body. It was freezing cold and they were all in their winter clothes. It was so cold, and Kellie didn’t mind the soilder who was protecting her to mess with her warm body. “ I want something to drink other than this firewater and our limited water supply. “ said the confederate boy. “ I have a solution for the issue, even though it is kind of gross. I can breast feed both of you if you  want to drink breast milk, It may work.” The girl said. Everrybody declined. “ We are an estimated 26 hours away from our stop where the 22nd North Carolina will await us, from there we will head to a fort called Fort Johnson which I got a telegram saying it was under attack and our powers are needed. However, before we arrive, Kellie, Me and my sister must quckly teach you how to use a Springfield rifle, the weapon you, me, my sister, and the rest of the 22nd North Carolina have. They have been given special and dangerous “upgrades.” When we came back from the dead. So considering that… Just then a man from the train broke out and smashed open the doors to the boxcar. “ We have been spotted! You don’t know how to use these rifles so use my sister’s pistol. The confederate boy said.”  Sure enough the man on the train checking cargo yelled “Stowaway!” 5 men  rushed to the boxcar’s door, to find their comrade dead. Bullets started to shoot out, Gunfire was everywhere. As the men assailed them, the Confederate boy said : “ That man dropped his gun. You know how to use those better than ours so take it before he has a chance. I am wearing bulletproof vest so don’t worry about me. You and Katlyn hide behind the cargo and shoot from there, like a makeshift fort. I will stay in front. Neither of you are protected becase you lack the equipment. Don’t let them know you are here till I smile then fire. We must protect this boxcar. We are in the middle of nowhere and the enemy is focused on Fort Johnson. Kill these men, take control of the train, and all is well. “ The springfield fired faster than normal and the ammunition was skin piercing. No need for using a rod to reload  with the upgrades it had. Two of the men went down then came the other three. They jumped into the car and like he said he said he would, The Confederate boy smiled. Kellie and Katlyn shot like crazy. With only her pistol, Katlyn was in the most danger. All of the sudden the boy fell and said “ I’m dying. Take my weapon Kellie and hand it to Katlyn. Not Going To… Wounded as he was,   he got up and sang “ Shot down in a blaze of glory….” Close to stumbling, him and the train conductor fired at the same time. Both instantly  died. No time for tears and 2 men left, Katlyn and Kellie nonstop kept shooting. Due to lack of ammunition and bad weapons, both girls  fired gunshot after gunshot. One man fell down leaving it 2 to one. However, the final enemy in the train came to them, laid down his weapon and said “ I have a deal.” Before he could explain it he broke out and started to rape Katlyn and tied Kellie up.. “ You can’t stop me!” the thug said. 

crime with a babyish punishment

As they arrived, Evan and Katie warned everyone saying “ The whole town that is able to  fight for their lives, including children and women who are able to, must all come to Fort  Jameson and defend. We will help them get themselves and any needed provisions such as food and weapons braught with them. The fort is low on arms and reasources so each man, woman, and child must bring whatever they can to fight. Those who can’t fight will be protected in a hidden part of the most inner part of the fort. They already took out a minor small fort 3 hours away so we have very little time to prepare for a major attack. “ said Katie. Instantly everyone was doing everything they could to evacuate and keep the enemy from gaining anything that could be used against them. Many of the families had guns that had been in their family for ages and knew by heart how to use them over newer types, and with no time to train, these families braught what they knew how to use. Food and extra bedding was driven in by the masses from the Y-Mart owner. The townsfolk agreed to bomb everything in their town. One hour latter, all the townsfolk and those already in the fort were at their positions. “ Is everybody  ready for a life or death battle? These people all want us dead. They totaled a unprepared smaller base 3 hours away and set it on fire because it was too small to be of any use. All the people got killed! Thus we are all here today. We must fight like the Warriors each of us are, and win. There will not be any lives lost for no reason, and we will not be a sacrifice!” Said General Jackson. Just then, the dark side started their assault. At least 250,000 wicked ones were attacking outside, including 200 fire cannons, 700 tanks, and 20 fresh from the factory airplanes. Right on the roof of the fort 100,000 snipers were waiting to fire at the planes from long distance…” Kill Kill! You can do this! Cried Katie. It took 24 hours of planes catching on fire, bombs going off, 5,000 people of all ages, many were townsfolk, including children shot dead to the ground or hit by fire bombs. Millions of gunshots and poisoned fire arrows were shot down at the enemy, as body after body ether blew up or fell down dead covered in blood.  Fort Jameson had been hit in 5 different areas, but somehow the fort was held, thanks to the patriotic citizens and the dropping of many explosives that killed half of the enemy, the other half were killed by those fighting to protect the fort. Blood was everywhere. Some people’s heads had been shot off, while others bodies had been burnt to a crisp.  At the end of the day the remaining 2,000 assailants surrendered and were taken prisoners of war. “ What should we do about the POWs Katie? They are all down in those crowded cells, and they best be interrogated as soon as possible. Should we start tonight?” asked General Jackson. “ Yes. Let’s start the interrogation process. It should be easy to know who to kill and who to talk to. Their attitudes show their loyalty. Anybody who shows any sign of remorse will be questioned further but from what I saw that seemed few.” Katie responded. So off they went, dealing with the POW’s. There were 3 who came out and were willing to talk. All of these were put through a truth detector but only one was telling truth in what she said. It was a 12 year old girl named Kaylee. “I’m really sorry! I had no clue what I was getting into. These people, all of them have been brainwashed except me. They were torturing me just to accept that I was no longer myself. I did not accept dominance of those I did not like. I was told I would get everything under the sun if I joined the dark side, but never told that I would have to give myself up. So they flogged me, beat me, sexually abused me, and forced me to fight  ever want to see these people again! Just trust m eand let me help you. I know much information you would be interested in. She sobbed. Forgive me!! She cried.” After a few minutes of thinking Katie said: “  I will save you. I believe you are truthful and here you will never have to give up what they were not able to make you give up. “ said Katie. With no words to express her emotion, Kaylee gave Katie a big hug. “ Time for you to get dressed out of these nasty rags and be given proper food, then a bath. You need to be clean. After a nice meal and you cleaning yourself uup, I want to talk to you. “ said Katie.. “ Ok Katie! Will do!” then off to the shower she went, with a clean dress made with protective silk from a secret garden nobody knew the location of. In her pocket she had a tracking device on her breast assigned to contact the enemy while she was still on the dark side.. When she remembered it she instantly called out Katie. “ What do you need?” Katie responded. There’s a dad gum tracking device on me that I am not able to remove along with everyone else here. Remove it from my body please. And if you have not killed them yet, kill every prisoner right now. Be ready for a second hit. I know exactly what is coming so just listen to me but first remove this tracker from my breast. It is a danger to everyone! Have you killed the enemy yet” Thank God we have !  And right now we need to remove that from your body. Be careful and don’t scream, but first, is the tracker in range of the enemy? “ yes. . But it will take a few days for them to arrive. Be ready for their worst. Call in strong amounts of reinforcements. “ Kaylee said, as the tracker was removed from her chest. “ Now have whatever you can bring come to our help. I can give you a accurate description

Crime with a babyish punishment

once again set up office in a private room and was helping make future plans. She had also been training Evan how to fight properly, both the modern way and the Spartan way. She also gave him the power to fly with her. Thus was her way of trying to make a amle counterpart out of a ordinary human. Katie was Back in North Carolina, everything was at peace for the time being. The Dark side’s attacking troops had been completely wiped out and nobody was able to let anybody outside of town know what was going on unless they drove to the nearest enemy base which was 7 hours away. So the good side was giving the dated Fort Bragg a much needed renovation and had been reinforcing it so they could hold the fort and control North Carolina. Katie had making Evan, by his own will to become a fairy like her so she would have a male counterpart. “ I never thought I would ever be able to do this, Katie! Thank you for this training. It’s so different than my old self. I have become a fairy like you. I am learning  to be a victorious fighter also. But why?” then Katie responded saying “ I always wanted another of my dying race. I was the only one left. I was given th permission by God to make you become a fairy warrior just like I am. It gets very lonely being the last remaining. When I met you I knew you were the right person. After we win this war I want to become your wife. But for now, we must fight for freedom and victory. Oh yes, I love you.” “ I love you too Katie.” Then Evan kissed Katie on the lips. Once that was over and they finished fighting practice, it was time for dinner. Everyone gathered up at the table to eat. The dinner was large. There was Authentic Carolina style BBQ  , crispy Tatter Tots, and Slaw. Some people put their BBQ on buns while others ate it straight off the plate. All around it was the best BBQ they all had ever tasted. For drinks most of them had ether Coke, Sprite, Water, or Alcohol.  With a feeling of victory, and a little too much yo drink, Katie raised her bottle of Dos Equis and yelled “A Toast for victory!!!” Everyone roared and clinked their glasses. Everyone was having a good time, when all of the sudden Katie and Evan were summoned to the intelligence room by a man in black. “ Urgant news. Come with us now but don’t get noticed. We need your help now! In the intel room filled with all it’s computers and equipment, the head of Fort Bragg’s intel branch, Sir Greene, said “ A message has been intercepted from the Enemy that reads they will be making a strike on the less guarded Fort Jameson, 2 hours from here in Kriston. Your job is to alert the inhabitants of the surrounding town to be up in  arms to guard the fort. The described forces are 25,000 soilders , 2 tanks, and 3 planes. Our air force is horrible but 6 of our 15 pilots are preparing to fire at enemy planes. “ ok sir! We understand.” 

Monday, October 24, 2016

Sit down and cry.....

Sometimes I smile and look so happy,

Like everything is going my way.

The part that is strange is that soften that ain't the case!

I sit in my room sometimes and cry,

Then I really, really, want to die.

And after awhile I feel hopeful and smile.

God has many times not given me the strength needed to take my life.

Friday, October 21, 2016


She's beautiful,


She's everything to me.

She's like a angel when she's smilin,

I know I am dyin,

But i wish she could see,

Just how much she means to me.

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Sad endings and a hopeful future...

Hi everyone. My life has been changing so much recently, so I wanted to share it with you guys who follow me. First of all I added in the music video for Everything Changes by Staind in case you want to listen to it. I'm going through major changes. Firstly, Wednesday was the Conference meet, the final Cross Country meet I will ever run in, although I might help out at regionals. With highs and lows and much fun it has been a good season. I broke my personal record at our final home meet before Conference (my school always hosts Conference.) 9 schools came, and my school was ranked 2nd. The excesivly strong Northern Guilford High School team beat ours. However, our best runner did manage to secure second place before anyone from Northern Guilford could. He normally gets first place at regular meets but him getting second place at Conference is a big achievement! I ran as JV ( Junior Varsity) and got second to last place. JV is all the players who did not make the top seven in each team. I did my best and it was not quite enough to not be defeated by Northern Guilford's worst JV player. So from here I will start practicing for racing individually at 5k competitions accross North Carolina. I have till the end of next July till I start college so I might as well train for competitions and such while waiting. In January I will graduate from High School and am stressed over it all.The local community college is where I will spend my first 2 college years. as I run more I hope I will gain more rewards. Here's how I ended my season:

                                             A lot of stuff right? Ya....
Anyways I will hopefully have more time to post regularly. Oh yes, Throughout all this I feel like my best friends have abandoned me!  Here's a colection picture of my team and different photos of us:

some of these pictures are from this season, some are from last season.

Well, I hope everyone has a good night. : )

Monday, October 17, 2016

She's my everything !

When I'm with you,

I feel so happy,

Your princess hair,

And your pretty body,

But you are more than a hottie,

You kind and sweet,

Tender unlike me,

She's my everything!

Sunday, October 9, 2016

My prayer for myself to God......

Lord help me control myself,

And help me fight my emotions,

Before I do something stupid,

I am bored of not asking for help,

I guess I can't do this by myself,

So Jesus help me deal with it all,

I know alone I just might fall,

And get killed by myself,

Help me fight my mind,

Which tends to go out of control.

I just know I need help.

Thus I ask you Jesus ,

To give help I need,

To survive.

Don't walk away

girl don't walk away,

I'm on my knees babe,

I know I am a pain,

But don't walk away,

I care about you,

I just want you to know,

I don't want you to go,

Don't walk away I love you so!

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Why don't you trust me?

I walked on water,

I calmed the sea,

I fed thousands,

Why don't you trust me?

I gave it all for you,

Gave my life to save your soul,

and then came back again,

resurected and restored.  

Why don't you trust me? 

Why do you have little faith,

In the one who saved you,

from hell's fury. 

Just trust me.  

- poem I wrote about Christianity, Jesus, what he did, how he died and rose again  and why we should make him first.  

Saturday, October 1, 2016

I now have five followers finally!

Thank you all! my followers mean a lot. Thank You ashley Niccole for being my fifth follower, My blog is finally getting somewhere due to my awesome followers: Ashley Nicole, Avery stephens, aidyl ewoh , and Rae Hatcher. Y'all rock!

my blood..

feel my blood girl,

feel it fall,

as you touch my dying heart,

Taste the taste of death itself,

And be my help,

do what no doctor has ever done,

what no physician or psychologist can,

Give me love,

and take the pain with me,

Be my deadly baby,

the one that tears me apart.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

My lil princess

My lil princess does not know what she does to me,

Every time she gets on her tired feet and runs,

It just stuns me every time.

The strengh she has,

That motivation and willpower,

So innocent and sweet,

just draws me in,

like i'm in deep  water,

But everything is ok,

When I am holding her.

Saturday, September 17, 2016

stip the bleeding.

Lord help me stop the bleeding...

I can't stand myself anymore!

You understand but I don't,

Just help me not self destruct,

help me Jesus Help!

You know my pain....

And you saved me.

So help me stay afloat.

Please Jesus, help!


There is hope,

I look to heaven,

And it leaves me wanting,

Just wanting to go home,

He's saved me thrice,

So Jesus has me here for a reason,

I just don't know why,

I still just want to cry.

Lord, take me home.

Friday, September 16, 2016

touch my scars...

Will you dare touch my scars,

Kiss my hurting lips,

And love me as I bleed,

Hug me as I die,

And hold me as I fall apart,

So girl choose me,

And see the scene ,

of a dying boy that nobody sees,

The one that looks so joyful,

But is in reality coming undone....

When I think Of You.

When I think of you,

Every time I do,

I see your pretty smile,

And feel your tears you cry,

When I see you,

I see dreams come true,

As you walk up to me ,

Dressed with Cinderella's beauty,

When I feel you,

I feel the pain,

Knowing you must leave today.

Thursday, September 15, 2016

History's thoughts: The similarity between the Confederate Flag and the American Flag and both nations ( Before the Confederacy fell.)

Well, I've been thinking today how I have a Confederate Flag quilt on my bed and a American flag hanging on my wall right on top of my bed. It got me thinking: is there any similarities  between the Confederate Flag , The American Flag, and their history? Here's what I cme up with after much thinking. First of all, the Confederate flag and American Flag represent freedom. As crazy as it sounds, it is true. The South wanted freedom from the North because they thought the North was being unfair to the South, and the original colonies that made up the  original America also faught for indpenfance, but they were wanting Independence from British rule. Both nations gained their indpendence, the Confederacy and the United States of America. Yes, the Confederacy only lasted for a few years but it gained Independence even though not for long. We all know it fell after the Civil War. Both the American Flag and Confederate Flag the men that faught under each , they were all patriots. And to be honest, I think eventually  there will be a American Civil War II in the future. I don't konw if it will be in my life time or not. but there just might be one. This time however, it will NOT have slavery involved as a issue. If it happens, all races and minorities who are willing to fight to defend their freedom will be welcomed to join. Our government is becoming more and more corrupt and that corruptness is what might lead to a Civil War II. God bless America and may America not become so corrupt that it is dangerous everywhere.

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

What does it mean to " Be a man"? ( Part One)

I love country music y'all as noted. There's a fairly new song from country-pop singer Kelsea Ballerini called Peter Pan. It's about a guy who's "never gonna grow up , never gonna be a man."
What does it mean to " be a man?"

Well, in the Bible  Paul says to us Christian guys and gals in 1st Corinthians 13:11 that " When i was a child, I talked like a child, Thought like a child, and reasoned like a child. When I was a man I put away childish things." Now I shall try to go into that now. Well, first of all I will start by saying that the ways us guys treat women can be childish and how with God's help change that. Admit it, most guys sometimes see a girl and have sexual thoughts. It's even harder in relationships. More often than not we end up " breaking up." with the girl. If you just act thoughtlessly with her and start sleeping with her, especally if it is a biblical relationship between 2 Christians, you make it unbiblical and you have defiled the gir'ls body and sinned against God. You could possibly make her pregnant and that could lead to her aborting the child which is murder. If you get into that state here are the 2 things you should do: Not dump her and the baby, but support her. However do not screw up with her again unless you get married to her and after that you can screw up with her and truly love her. Remember our bodies are God's temple. ( 1st Corinthians 6:19-20). overall this first part of this article is don't follow youthful passions over girls. ( 2nd Timothy 2:22 ) and don't date non Christian girls also.

To be continued....

Sunday, August 21, 2016

Don't hate me..

Don't hate me,

For what I am,

I never chose to be this way,

So stop the hate,

Don't give me pain.

Don't hurt me,

I know you don't want me,

You use me like a toy,

And seduce me like i'm a fool,

You yell at me so viciously,

And in my mind I scream " Somebody Help Me!"

Don't do this to me,

You don't know my suffering.

-,Evan White

Friday, August 12, 2016

The Slaying of Princess Pain

Thoughts run through my mind,

I feel like I can fly,

The same way pain does ,

When it runs through my veins,

I wake up from this happy dream,

Where I can actually be me,

To find nothing but princess pain,

Who slays boys with self hate,

Tells them they are to be shamed,

I must do what needs be,

Put on my armor and hold my sword,

Go to war with the danged whore who slays,

Princess pain.

Her army of emotions must be destroyed ,

The battle wages on and there she is,

In her blood stained dress,

The sociopathic bitch.

She says to me " give up you worthless dick!" ,

I say back " I'm sick of your bitching and rule in my lfie.",
She offers a knife saying " die.",

I feel her power but do not stir,

Having enough I thrust my sword into her lung.

The deed is done,

The war is won.

Priciness pain is replaced by her sister,

Princes Joy,

Who with God's blessing rules the land with hope,

And peace and love.

Thursday, August 11, 2016


Everything seemed so normal,

Like every other day,

He went to school and acted like he was ok,

What else  could he say?

So it all was hidden away,

Yet the crazy boy could not escape the pain.

Sticks and stones left cut arms,

And what they did left him enraged,

The wound that was in his heart worsened,

But  nobody knew,

As everything was bad it turned worse,

his best friend was found dead after a drunken wreck.

he stared at her body and felt her pain.

Still nobody knew.

It was too much, so he  looked at the schedule from trains.

11 P.m., he laid on the railroad ties and waited,

11:10 came and so did the train.

The Amtrack ran over him,

And his life was over,

He was happy with Jesus and his girl.






That accronyn sums up me. I'm heartbroken, feel unloved and rejected and i'm trash. Sorry for the short post. Will try to do better.

Sunday, July 31, 2016

late night love song.

I got a feelin thats burniin my mind,

All that's going on is he is riding away,

why not toss up a lil something back in your life,

And not let you leave lonely tonight.

Come on after this football game,

Hop on my bike and lets ride away,

Got out together and get a lil insane.

Visit my place and have a party tonight,

Or just drive all night till the sunlight.

Don't sit in the past girl,

Jump inside this crazy train,

We can go ether way,

Till we kill our pain.

Stop at the train tracks and smile,

I know we are only friends but still,

This is my late night love song.

Monday, July 25, 2016

You are the reason

You are the reason

You are the reason I'm trying harder,

To be the man I need to be,

You are the reason ,

I'm trying to be more clean,

You are the reason,

I put my head up and keep on,

Even when the going gets hard,

I think of you.

You are the reason ,

I want to control myself.

I got a ways to go,

But with your help I know,

I must keep on going,

Thank you.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

ruined souls....

the church bells ring on sunday morning,

everyone is happy so it seems,

The choir sings Holy Holy Holy,

And the minister speaks about how Jesus saves,

Come every other morning, his words will change.

Tuesday night  a woman came in to the church,

She was filled with hurt and pain,

With a desire to repent and become a Christian,

She walked to the pastors office and walked in.

" My name is Cathy, and I am filled with pain,

I have commited many sins,

My home I was raised in was broken,

After years of abuse ,

When I turned 18 I ran from it,

and became a alcoholic,

2 years later I got pregnant from a one night stand,

And killed my child via abortion.

Now all I need is help and a way out,

If God loves everyone,

Will you tell me how he can rescue?"

"You wretched drunken whore! ",

The minister said.

Upset and crying the woman left,

but on the way to her Ford ,

She saw the pastor's daughter in prayer.

" Jesus, forgive that poor woman, let her get to know you."

She heard the girl say.

And then the girl cried " Stop miss!'.

This 15 year old girl led the Woman to Christ,

Cause she could sort of understand what the woman had felt,

Even after her new life,

The woman felt the pain she had left,

And in a depressive state she said " Jesus forgive me!",

and shot a bullet in her head causing instant death.

Two days latter the minister was at his desk,

And had a heart attack that instantly left him dead.

As he looked at God he was scared,

for Jesus said " Depart i never knew you!",

The man thought he had light,

but he had death.

And in heaven the suicidal girl who had repented,

was happy forever.

(This poem is targeted for ridicule against false so called Christians who thought they were saved but never were,)

" Not everyone who saith to me Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; But he that doth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? And in thy name cast out devils? And in thy name done many wonderful works? And then I will profess unto them, I never knew you:  depart from me, ye that work iniquity. " - Mathew 7:21-23 KJV

Thursday, July 14, 2016

crime with a babyish punishment

" Where are we going?" Asked Kellie. The Confederate girl then said: " We are going to a long abandoned fort that's takeover by our folk in 1861 started the civil war. It is there you have been assigned to train. Very few people remember it because the history of what was America his nearly been erased. We will be riding by horseback to South Carolina. " This is insane! Why not use a train or something faster? They will kill us before we reach our location!" Kellie responded. The boy sighed and said, " Maybe a train would be a faster way of doing things and less dangerous. If we hid in a box car we would not be noticed. Nobody would know we existed. It will be rough and bumpy but much more concealed and safer than riding. But before we get on, it's best we stop at the nearest store and get something to eat. On the way up I saw a  store that had a giant sign saying Food Lion on it. The store had been abandoned it seems but we might find some supplies. " Said the boy.  They all agreed on the idea on riding a train. " uh, how will we use the bathroom if we are in a boxcar for days on end? It will be rather hard because there is no toilet in a boxcar I am pretty sure." Asked Katie.  Nobody responded, cause that had not been thought of yet. With tired horses, they arrived at the store. The door was unlocked. " We will need just enough food to last us a few days. If we get food that will spoil it will be bad and we will have nothing to eat. We must find things that will not spoil. Like canned goods." The boy said. As they walked through the aisles Kellie noticed a igloo cooler and said. " This cooler will keep food  cold for a day or so. " and she grabbed the cooler and stocked it up with foods that would need a cooler while the Confederate twins got bulk goods. Just before they left to the check out counter, she ran to the aisle that had a sign on top saying " Baby Goods." She ran through that area, and grabbed 2 bags of large girls Goodnites and 2 bags of large girls UnderJams. they all met at the checkout area. When the girl noticed the diapers she asked " What are Those for??" Kellie then explained. " If we go on a boxcar with no bathrooms or a way to get out and use the bathroom, I thought we could use diapers when we have to go to the bathroom. I know it is gross but thee only other option is mess or wet our underwear which will cause a bad smell in we will be caught. With these we will not have to deal with that. If one of us has to use the bathroom, we can use a diaper and another one of us could if need be, change diapers. " The boy responded saying " You are right. By the way Kellie, we found a loaded Smith and Wesson .48 Special with a box of bullets for it . Considering you don't seem to know how to use our 1860s guns and swords, I thought you might like this as a sidearm and as your main weapon you can have this .22 rifle with ammunition we found. If we end up being caught by the so called police that work for gangs our guns will come in good use. " 2 hours latter, right before the train started it's midnight ride, they snuck into a boxcar with their stuff and hid behind some boxes in case someone went in to investagate. Luckily nobody did and as the train left Kellie clung to the boy in his confederate uniform. It was cold and even though the girl had found and baught a blanket to use for sleeping and 2 tiny pillows, it was almost impossible to sleep as the train went on. After they ate some sandwiches and shared a bottle of wine, the boy said " I will have the first shift for lookout. You girls try to go to bed." Then nervously he added in " Kellie, I really like your hair." Kellie was fast asleep though, and could not hear him. The train went into the night....

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

I wanna be that song by Brett Eldridge ( We all have that person..)

We all have that person we want to be that song for.... He/she can be your best friend, your fellow student, your girlfriend or boyfriend.... 

Dedicated to someone I really care about

Monday, July 4, 2016

Purposeful Pages Link Up

Purposeful Pages is a monthly link-up designed to unite bloggers on answering questions about life, blogging, the Bible, writing, and books.



                          Answer to question 1. Romans 7;15. I can relate to what that verse so much because of the fact I also do not know why I do what I do

Question 2:The Guns Of The South

Question 3: I want to run better and faster this month

Question 4:I changed the layot of my blog a bit, delete some pages, and edited the about me section.

Question 5: the latest chapter i had posted .

Question 6: " We are here to help you." The girl said

Question 7:David. Because he suffered and had depression issues

Question 8: N/A

Question 9: I have learned certain was to attract more bloggers.

Question 10: Katie, from my own book. I don't know exactly what i'd do.


Sunday, July 3, 2016

If I was dead...

The world would be happier,

If I was dead,

So why am I living instead,

Considering the world ,

Would be happier if i was dead,

Why do I not drive this knife through my chest?

Yet I survive and live on,

Though sometimes I wish I was gone.

Friday, July 1, 2016


Why am I here,

Why am I alive,

Why does nobody hear my silent cries,

As I slowly die,

But nobody knows,

if they did, would they care?

Jesus loves me ,

This I know,

but where did everyone else go?

Crime With A Babyish Punishment

" So, you 2 have came to help me? Why? You have not ever seen me before, so how can I trust you? " Kellie asked the Confederate twins. " We did not come from nowhere. The leader of the good side, our leader, wanted us to be of your service. I know, me and my sister look like white trash,We are white trash. We are honored to protect you, tthe same way we tried to protect our conquered homeland in the 1860s. Me and my sister don't look like much  but will be of great service to you."
The boy said to Kellie. " Your weapons look the same as they probably did in the 1860s. Are you sure they will work? Kellie asked. " They are as old as us, which is over 1,100 years old. We never lost our youthful look for some reason and defied the concept of growing old. Our weapons have in a way done the same. Never lost a gunfight with this pistol, and in this day and age good weapons are hard to find. Our horses are outside, and we must leave now! We can talk later, the enemy is nearby and we must go." You will ride with my brother and he will give you his sidearm to protect yourself. " Said the girl, as her brother gave Kellie a Colt 1851 and led her to the girl's horse. " You and my sister will be riding together, ok? " The boy asked Kellie. " Ok, I will." she said. Off they went into the night. Back in Vegas, Jason and the rest were out to do their final duty in that filthy city. They had to assassinate Mary Annie's mother and kill the rest of the gang. " This is it! This is their location. I know this building by heart. I shall be the one to assassinate. You all follow me and kill all resistance you see, but I must deal with my mother alone. She rarely has guards in her room." Fifteen minutes later they were all in the building and had killed all resistance. Jason ordered they all stay in case trouble broke out. Back in her mother's room, Mary Annie was trying to reason with her mother. " Mom, why do you do what you do? Why are you fighting for the dark side? Are you blind? This will only lead to utter ruin. I love you mom, do you really want to live like this?' Annie, they killed your father, you do know that right? Her mom sobbed. " Mom.. they did not, the truth is.... I did. I sided against the dark side and killed him when he was in one of his violent rages." Said Mary Annie. And now since I could not reason with you, I must kill you also. Your army is all dead." With a sob, she pulled the trigger off her gun and shot her mother dead. Not able to bear the sight of her dead mother, she ran to the bedroom she grew up in, and cried in the pillow of her bed with purple covers. " I need to get up and going." She finally told herself. " But first I will get a few personal belongings before I leave." Mary Annie went  to her dresser and pulled out a old Browning Buck Mark, loaded it with proper ammo and grabbed a box of  bullets. Next she gently took a American Girl doll she had always loved off of a chair, the soft pillow she had been crying on,  Finally, Mary Annie took down a old photograph of her and her brother when they were kids and a diary. There were so many things she wanted to take but she could not take it all, so she joined the others and they drove away.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Wave On Wave - Pat Green

can't get over you!

Girl I can't get over you,

Your hair is still flying everywhere,

In my mind you are right her,

In my arms dancing,

on a old oak floor,

and running by me,

on a worn dirt track,

hold me one more time,

one more kiss,

oh! You aren't here,

It's just my head playing with me,

I just can't forget you.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Crime With A Babyish Punishment.

After they fled the battle site and left the bodies to rot, Tanya, Jason, Elisa, Lydia, Becca, and Mary Annie all went to the Golden Nugget Casino and booked rooms for the night. " Let's go down and do a bit of gambling while trying to meet people who could be of potential help. We might find some of us good folk here, as hard as it sounds. " Suggested Lydia. With that, they all went out of their rooms and made their way to different parts of the Casino. Lydia and Mary Annie both went together , each armed with a Ruger LC9 , ready for a fight, if one was to break out, they walked over to set of poker and roulette tables. With much thoughtlessness, Mary Annie tossed in a bet of $5,000 and chatted with the waiter , and the conversation quickly turned to the dark side and how Eddie, the waiter, hated it wand wanted out. He had no clue Mary Annie was a follower of the good side. " Why don't you join the good side?" Mary Annie asked. " I don't know where to join..." Eddie said. " I'm on the good side. Join us and we can defeat the enemy." replied Mary Annie. " I'm all in!" Eddie cried. Just then Mary Annie won $50,000 on the poker table then went to the slot machines. Tanya and Jason were sitting at the bar , while Elisa and Lydia were relaxing on a sofa. While sipping on her drink at the bar, Tanya overheard the bartender talking to a very rich looking man in a Italian suit . " So, has the slaughter  plan for those idiotic teens who are resisting our propaganda at Las Vegas High School? That army fighting for the so called good side and burning their textbooks and homework? The ones who have made Las Vegas High School a stronghold against us, led by teachers who also resisted our majesty's government? I heard they have taken out every teacher there who is loyal to us, and been training all the rebel students self defense and teaching them how to fight? How do we think we should go around fixing this " problem" cause this can not continue. Should we send a militia after them, or should we set off a bomb. " asked the fancy dressed man. Hearing all this, Jason's anger burned. From the sofa near the bar, Lydia sent a text to Mary Annie, saying " The School your brother goes to go that  that has become a stronghold to the light side, any clue if your brother goes there? If so he is probably if alive, now fighting for us. The School is to be attacked i don't know when but it will. " Minutes after she sent the message she got a response. that said " I know already he is no longer part of the dark side. Thanks for letting me know. " At this point Jason could not take the man in the Italian suit anymore. Without thinking of the consequences , he took the Colt 1911 from his holister and opened fire. " Screw You!" Jason yelled. One shot, 2 shots, and the man fell down dead. A outrage broke out over the noise and what came next was a bloody scene. From the back of the bar the bartender reached for a 12 guage shotgun , and returned fire. Marry Annie was a good shooter for her age, largely because she was raised in a gang, and as the bartender started spraying shotgun shells she fired and killed him, just as the guards and armed patrons started running at them. with They were close to a door and Elisa yelled " Let's get out of here! Forget our belongings for now at least. Mary Annie has 50k worth of money anyways. We must leave now! We are out maned and will be killed." with those words, they all ran, shooting this way and that on the way out at different people. "we took the wrong stairway and are stuck! " Cried Becca. " Then climb that fire escape ladder outside the window. its our only hope! " Yelled Tanya. One by one they hopped out of the window and climbed the rusty, old, fire escape ladder. As they got to the ground Mary Annie asked " Where is Becca?" as they drove off in a stolen Ford Mustang. Back in the building Becca was trapped and pinned down by 5 guards. " If I am going down, so will you! " She screamed and went for a lighter she had seen on the bar. She took the cigarette lighter. After 2 flicks, it lit up, and Becca said her final words which were " You Can Do Nothing Now!" She pushed the lighter against the walls, and the spark quickly started burning and the fire spreading. The whole building was on fire and there was much screaming and yelling for help. The building was a living hell for the very people who dedicated their lives to live for Satan. Nobody except a young woman named Kellie made it out alive. She was a woman who had gone there to warn of the wickedness and share the message of Jesus Christ, which was the message that the Christians who made up much of the Rebelion believed. She barely made it out alive and when she got out, suffered from minor burns. She strongly supported the Rebellion and was a rebel. with nothing  much else, she found her beat up 1985 Honda Civic and went to her home..... but when Kellie was getting close to her neighborhhod, the smoke from the whole area showed that she had no home to go to. With nowhere else to go, Kellie drove her car out of town. Further, and further she went, till  she finally reached her destination; a small truck stop owned by a man named Josiah , a fellow rebel and friend who she thought was trustworthy. Using her last bit of money, she sat down on a diner stool at the Waffle House connecting to the hotel and ordered 2 waffles, a coffee, and a slice of bacon. The food smelled so good to her as the woman behind the counter said: " I hope you have a good dinner. Business has been tough. " Just then 2 figures walked into the Waffle House. One was a girl who seemed to have came straght out of  the reconstruction era in the formar United States. Her dress was torn and had a pale blue color, and she bore a Remington 1858, which was commonly used in the American First Civil War. The other was a boy, about 17, dressed in the Grey Confederate Soilder's uniform, armed with a Springfield. The girl and boy were siblings and lived throught he civil war. " We are here to help you." The girl said.....

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Crime With A Babyish punishment.

     Last time we left our heroes and heroines, Emily had been kidnapped by a gang of girls. Jason , accompanied by Tanya , Elisa, and some friends had gone to Vegas where she supposedly was behind held, and Super Girl and Katie were helping fight for  The Republic.
     Jason, Tanya, Elisa, and some friends left the plane and headed to Old Donnie's place in a pickup they had stolen , and had no clue about the Devil's Advocates. " Where is this place Again" asked a girl named Becca. " This is our refuge housing while here ok? It is somewhere around here,.... There it is! " Exclaimed Elisa. With much excitement they all headed to the cabin. " I'ts time boys, they coming. Ready?" asked Billy the Reaper , leader of The Devils Advocates. " We are! " was  the response from the gang. All of the sudden shots were being fired from all sides. " We are under attack! " Cried  Lydia as she loaded a M16 and started firing at a sniper. " I am estimating 7 poorly armed gang members. Fire at the enemy without being seen. Their leader must be slain and most likely is ..... " A bullet then rang and hit Tanya in the arm. " Screw you you piece of trash! " She responded. Her bulet hit the target in the neck . Jason had been waiting for the right time to take out the sniper. All of the sudden the sniper stopped to reload. That was Jason's chance and he took it . " God, make this bullet hit him hard." He prayed. The bullet hit straight in the heart and the Sniper's body fell out of the trees. " Thank God ! and  good job Jason! That leaves 3 more. Only problem is we will have to get into the building to finish them off and kill this gang. " Elisa said. It was decided that Lydia and Becca would go into the building and finish off the last 3 thugs while Tanya was bandaged up where she was shot. both armed with a Colt 1911 , they walked in. 2 men, clearly guards who were very drunk, started shooting back, but they were too drunk to shoot properly, Quickly Lydia finished them off. With caution they proceeded. They heard crying. " Dad! Let me go i'm sick of working for your danged gang! I'm sick of being a slave to our gang run world. Screw You Dad!" Before any of the girls could respond, their job was done for them as a shot and a moan came from the other room. With surprise, the girls followed. As they walked into the kitchen Becca looked in horror. A 9 year old girl had just shot dead The Reaper and was sobbing. " Don't kill me! I  understand why you would, but I did not have much of a choice but to fight for the gang is was born into. Rescue me before they come after me. Please. If you are the people I heard my dad talking about who have their firend, Emily kidnapped , I can lead you to them. I WILL lead you to them. It was the doings of my mom. I have 3 siblings. One of them wants out also. I want to join y'all. " What is your name , poor child?" Lydia asked. " My name is Mary Ann. Let me in and I will help you I swear I will. EVen if it means killing my family off. " Ten minutes latter Elisa had heard Mary Anne's story and said " Yes. I will trust you and rescue your brother along with Emily. It must have been hard having to kill off your father and soon having to kill your family. " said Elisa. " Yes, it is. But it will be worth it. So come on , Let's go! Emily is hidden in a 27 story Hilton , on the 27th floor second door to the right at the end of the hall. My siblings and family own the place and live nearby.  
Meanwhile, Super Girl and Katie had just helped take back North Carolina from enemy hands. After 10 days of fighting , Fort Bragg was surendered and the Governor's Mansion in Raleigh was bombed, resulting in the death of the governor. To celebrate, a party had been thrown to celebrated the liberated North Carolina at a bar called Lost Memories. Nervous, Katie took the hand of a boy who had been fighting beside her. " What's your name ? " She asked. " My name is Evan. I am  a 18 year old who left my school in Alamance County to fight. My school, Eastern Alamance High School got bombed along with half of my town. My family disapeared. I joined y'all because i wanted to defeat the dictator who had taken over our state. I also am Autistic. No offense, but you are stunning. What's your name?" My name is Katie, she told Evan. Will you dance with me ? " I will, sweet girl. You are the first girl to accept me. let me put down my Bud Light and I will come." With that, the 2 left the bar and hit the dance floor. Comes around 2 A.M; and the 2 had danced and talked and enjoyed each other. " Evan, you are the first boy I like and i think you like me too. Where are you staying?" asked Katie. " I'm staying at C-Me Mobile park in a blue trailer. Do you want to come to my house? The park is occupied but our supporters and houses the families of our men and women." Yes Evan, I would love to. I also have something to show you. Hop on my back, ok? " She said. "Ok Katie." Katie then said " Hold On!" and she spread her wings. 15 minutes they were at the mobile park. " How were you able to fly Katie? That was so fun but I don't understand. " Evan said. " Evan, I am a fairy girl. I rarely fly cause i'm not too good. I'm the last of my type. I feel a bond forming between us." Katie said. " I have felt it since we first started fighting. I don't suppose  you will become my fairy princess? Evan asked. In the background a radio was playing Tomorrow by Chris Young, and everything was just right. " I will be your fairy princess. I would love to be your fairy princess if you be my prince. " Said Katie. With that, Evan and Katie got into 2 seperate beds in the same room and fell asleep. Next morning Katie asked Evan " DO you want me to teach you the art of flying? " Yes Katie, Evan responded.